what is happening to me…

These days i have been at home. i didn’t go out. not even to school or the library. i just stayed at home, as if waiting for death. just felt that i am very useless. can’t do my things when it is time for me to do it. for it to blame it on the flu. or the case the dota match, if not i would be already be hopping around at home and outside. i am not sure sometimes if forcing soemthing to happen is good. or waiting for it to happen would e great. for my flu in this case. it is surpose to be fine long ago. but i waited for it to happen. but it worked the opposite direction. perhaps i should have seem a doctor long ago.

i just thinking what i would be doing if i am fine. if i am fit. would i be going for a run everyday? or would i be thinking how my millionaire project should work? or would i be working for the capital that i need for my business. or i would like now, sitting around doing nothing. just playing games and waiting for time to past.

maybe i would find my answer when i get myself on track. a time for me to think…

We live in a rapid world, indeed.

how fast is the world changing? is it really at the speed on one day. i guess it is not.

sometimes, i don’t like holiday. i rather there aren’t breaks for us. why? at least i know how fast my friends are changing. at holiday, i guess i am really quarantine myself. it acted as if i don’t know what is happening in the outside world, even though i know the world is in a fiancial crisis now. but i just lost track of friends some how. i wonder what is happening.

is that the reason why friendships also break apart? i guess, that is just one more thing for me to think about.

right now i guess, i should be concentrate all my time for me to recover. so that i can do all i want. and maybe to find out reason why she is not talking to me. and whether the reason that i know is really the reason.

for sometime, it is really unfair for me to don’t know somethings. i just hope you will get the message…

Secondary, just another memory now.

hi guys,

i have been MIA for sometime over here. of course, there was an national exam to overcome. secondly, it is the laptop problem which i face. now that the both of them are settled, i shall be back on the table again.

Over these four years, i guess many thing has change. from the first day of school till the coming last days in Deyi. i guess, Deyi had value added me, directly or indirectly. Nevertheless, it is a place where friendship are built, friendships are tested, friendships are bond as one. And one thing which everyone could find between these unqiue friendships is the love that managed to bond these special people, which with different talent in different areas. no matter how one hated secondary school, like my lao ma said to me in sec 2, they will still remember these days deeply. i agree with that. there are definitely things which i would treasure, for example, 206′06 and not forgeting 408′08. however, i have to admit that not all the days in Deyi were great. friendships are make, at the same time, enemies are in your way. if there are enemies, i guess they will realise what they have did when they grow up.

there are a number of things that i have managed to complete in secondary school. one of them, is to find out what is the real meaning of LOVE. but at the same time, to differentiate the difference between, Love, like and crush. i think i am a failure once in primary school. and i shouldn’t have mention it. that was a mistake. but right now, i think i should had learn from it.

i think you might fall asleep reading all these. so i shall keep them for another time. haha…

will definitely miss those days in class, 206′06, 408′08….