Archive for September, 2008

Elearning?

Posted in Daily on September 23, 2008 by ansonang1992

hihi.. well not very exciting week happen… but rather boring i think… haha.. everyday to school was very boring.. i was hoping to stay at home actually… only looking forward to chemistry lessons and SS.. don’t know why… i think it is because i hope to improve in these subjects…

Oh well… i think i haven been lacking my running… maybe need to do some already… haha.. if not i will be moving away from my SEA games gold medal dream… haha…

so.. shall just keep it short,… so that you all can do your work! haha.. or you should not be reading this at all… haha…

In pain… the hurt as turned numb… But looking forward to the day… where there will be freedom of speech… it wouldn’t be trap due to O levels. It will be fine… i have to tell myself to give it more time.. for me more time… for O levels would just a small obstacle… it will wait… but i hope that you would too…

However, do you know what i am thinking? do you know… you are the one?

Story….

Posted in Daily on September 18, 2008 by ansonang1992

Remember what i felt, it only reminds me that it is just a story……

The very moment that i think of her
just makes me want to smile…
it was her who make me think that everything is okay
it was her who make me think positive
it was her who make me try out
it was her who make me i am doing something worthwhile…

But everything was rather disturb. whenever i see him… not sure if it is just me… my jealousy…. or what i just felt uncomfortable… i am just helpless against it… but practically, there is nothing i can do… Not for i am nobody of her… and just another enemy of his. just to realise, though friends are close by my side… But enemies are just more more times closer than your friends….

I am not sure… How much i can hold on… but as much as i could… Many times… it just crack silently.. some times.. i don’t know there are how many pieces…. i am not sure if it could every pieces could be back at its place… orginal place… maybe it could heal…. maybe… but for it to heal… it wouldn’t be so soon… For at least… i know i need to breathe in pain…. for another 50 days….

Perhaps, till then the pain would be numb, numb till i can’t feel anything… or maybe it would just dead… Or maybe she won’t have the chance to be my princess… she would be someone’s esle….

only time could tell…. time….. time would also numb the pain…………

what the!!! crap world!

Posted in Daily on September 12, 2008 by ansonang1992

What is happening to this world!

is there still a word call kindness???????

is there still a word call friends???????? or i am not even a friend!

IT THAT IS THE CASE, THEN FINE! SEE WHO LOSE OUT MORE….. WHAT SHIT THING IS THIS! CRAP CRAP CRAP….. SO STUPID… A SIMPLE TASK BY TEACHER, YOU CAN’T CARRY OUT. SHIT YOU…. BLOODY HELL….. BEEN SO FED UP ALREADY….. PART OF REASON IS YOU….. NOW.. YOU ADD IN THIS THING….. REALLY NOTHING TO SAY…….. ONLY TO KNOW I WILL MAKE YOU END UP IN THE CENTRE OF EARTH IF YOU WERE TO SEE ME NOW……….. REALLY…………..

FRIENDS CLOSE, EMENIES CLOSER!!!!!!!!!!!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Kill Kill Kill!

Posted in Daily on September 12, 2008 by ansonang1992

Hi… oh well… life for me is gone ‘heywire’ …… not because i did badly for prelims, which i didn’t and in fact better than my mid year. nor it was because of the childish reason for losing the exam with someone esle. And i didn’t lost for i won an ice cream. and i didn’t bet with any one esle except the ice cream and donut.

What add on to the worse in my life was to see what red when something happen, for i dunno why it had gone worse…. i guess the numbness pain had became a little ‘hot’ … i felt like beating up the person…. only to control control control……….

in addition to that, i feel that i am just a tool… a tool being used as a guide. As if i have zero feelings…. as if i were there just for you to beat it. As if…. for you to kill it right me….

Just one thing for HIM to release. YOU HAVE YOUR FAIR SHARE ALREADY. WHAT FOR TOOK OTHERS?!

princesses…

Posted in Daily on September 3, 2008 by ansonang1992

Hi gus, third day of holiday , how is everyone doing?

oh well… i don’t know if my princesses are going to see this. but. why don’t this be just a place for me to let go. sometimes, things keep in me… are just going to brust in anytime. just like a time bomb which can blow. of course thanks to me jie… i not only have this place. but definitely, as a knight i hope my princesses could see this…

 

It was longer before you become my princess… but to me… it only seems that i have taken good care of you for only one day, and that was only yesterday. oh well, that is not the important thing. to put things in a more direct way, it is that i might not be possible for me to continue to take care of you for the rest of your life. Of course, i would do my best, as a knight, to always keep a look out for my princess. But sooner, if we are not able to go to the same poly or rather different course, my duty to protect would be even more difficult. 

Thus, i think as a knight, i have fail some what my duty. Neither did i take a look at the identification card of the people walking into the castle of yours, nor did i stop anyone from walking in there… however, one thing i have to realise. there might be more than the main gate into the castle… But there is only one me, i can’t telepot to all the gate guarding all of them.

Also one thing i have also fail, is to teach you how small yet how big the four letter word-LOVE. Perhaps this is because i have not settled mine properly. But i know what to expect for the word to come. I know it should be open and Romantic does not come from one side. It is also something that is since from both parties. Chemistry is complicated. But i am sure first love is remembered and never forgotton. i think i had learn to put it down. Although i know i can not forget her till now, i am sure the feeling is never there anymore. I want to tell you is that, there shouldn’t be anything call cover… maybe the other party would get hurt at the end of the day.

 Perhaps, i have to argee with you that it is not the right time now to talk about this. Since the ultimate aim is to have a good O level result, we should all be working towards this. 

 

I think i should have a drink with you, for i think you will have a lot to share after seeing this, but do you manage to see this?

Maybe let’s go somewhere no many people could find us…  Haha… so ya… if you manage to see this, do kindly inform your knight. He will be waiting for her at the gate, all set to leave at her command.

My princesses always…

 

 

 

I might be difficult for you to decide. But no better what decision you made, as you knight i will always continue to support you.

Always your knight, a fact that couldn’t change…