First week term3 2008

hi,

first week of school, can say that this time settling quite well. but two very piss of things happen.

firstly, i wondered how come the problem of my laptop re-appears after sending in for servicing. it should not be the problem of the software. i guess it is the fanning of my laptop. oh well.. i guess need to send for re-reservice again. guess also a time for me to take a break from my com.

i am not sure if i am thinking. But everytime he does it… it just make a very deep pain in me. i was thinking what was the level of commitment he have. or just she does not care. come to think of that everytime. i really see red… but i have to tol myself to calm down. there is actually not much things i could do. perhaps nothing. maybe at time i agree with  a female teacher, but what can i do if the two of them think it is ok? i wonder if he dare to do what he does in front of her. i just can’t wait for the day to be here. i just hoping i could take O at this point of time. I just wish that i can never see what he does again.

Not much things to comment of my week in school. but just the thoughts… i mention no one. therefore if you think you are the one i am prefering to, it is your thinking as i have mention NO OnE.

TO the person i am saying: I JUST HOPE YOU CAN REFLECT WHAT YOU HAD DONE.

Holiday mood

Hi guys,

It had been so long before i starting to clicking links on blogs. Well, i suddenly felt i am just like a boat, a single sail lying in the middle of the ocean. The only one sailing in the path. Other sails are all not really on my course. Perhaps the nearest one are just beside me when i need it and i know it is there. However for some ships, had actually been sailing further and further from me. Once a time the ailles friendly boats, is no where to be seen now.

I came into conclusion, and realise what adults say are right.

People Change.

For good or bad. I can only say. Majority became people whom i do not know. They became really like strangers. One whom as if i have never met before. As if my secondary school life just started from day 1. It was as if, nothing had actually happened to bring us together as friends. And i realise i understand little or rather zero of my friends. Why is it always this case? well.. nothing to say. I wondered why my friends just wanted to know all my personal secret? and spread them all around? If you can’t even keep a promise, Do you think i will let you know my things?

Trust is always not given but gained over time. If an event occurred that have to bring the level of trust till zero. Do you think i will ever trust you?

If a friendship is just about knowing each others secret and making it a world news, newspaper front page, then there is no use of maintaining the friendship. I would Rather end it and forget it. Perhaps i just want the person to know. Please wake up and think of what you have done. A second Chance? Perhaps you have to show me that you had really change. BUT, change for the GOOD.

Maybe as a teen, my life is considered young not knowing many things. experience is still not deep. But, Seeing so many friendships broken. I think i have learn soemthing. Like what Mrschew say, you don’t have to learn from experiencing it. You could also learn from others Mistakes.

I guess there have to be a thick line drawn across. And Stop at the line. Don’t cross over. Whether the person had read my advice. It is something that god knows.

Before you start a friendship next time, DEFINE YOUR WORD FRIENDSHIP.

As a friend of ours. Seeing what he had done for you. Is it for you? I am just being angry for her. for him to do this. for him to also indirectly hurt me. I just told myself, ” this can’t be continued.” it is just a pain that is there, everytime he did that to you… and also those beside her…

Friends yet like strangers…

Hi, this week was a usual one for me… which means not really great things happened. though there are a few…

hmm.. doubt raising. one great question that came right smack at my face. Are we still friends? it really ponders me? once you share alot everything to me. but now.. we could hardly talk. the time i hear you, is went would we be playing floorball? Lunch with you is as good as eating on my own. you took out your handphone and started all your SMSing. i could only be staring at you, thinking to myself : is this call lunch?

Things really change. At times, i hate holidays. Although i get to see them online, things came out: Do you want dota? Holidays also brought the gap between your friendship with me further apart. Are we still friends? You told me to give you a morning call. You yourself went home very late. and complained to me you couldn’t think straight, due to lag of sleep. Ask you where you were yesterday night, your answer is just: I went out with friends.

I aren’t sure what is call Privacy now, or rather what is call friendship? Is it just a platform for you to step over? how to determine who are good friends? friendship is not about being friends in school…

what i truly felt…

I had use ytd as a test. a test for what? a test to find out if she went because of me. however it turn out fine. the answer: it wasn’t. how true is it? i am not sure. but it does proves that i am a free young man.

I just felt it was the right thing to do at the moment.

i don’t really wish to think of anything, expect to get full swing into preparing for exams… and should get myself into the state of chionging for everything. and making sure i am doing my best.

shalln’t talk anymore.. wishing everyone and asking all taking o lvl. to enjoy your last 2 weeks of holidays!
Take care…

Dumpling Festival

Hi! Today is the dumpling festival! Early morning woke up and indeed breakfast was dumpling… hahaha… Oh well, need to rush off for tuition after this, again tuition 3/4…

This week I guess a number of things happen. Went to school for SS class on monday. It was a very “special” lesson. We were all ahead of Mrs Chew! Not sure who is right or wrong for being late, but important is that at least lesson had continue! haha… After that few days stayed at home, doing nothing but playing… Dota was killer… ahahaha.. ANYWAY GUYS… WANT TO PLAY… DON’T FIGHT… haha.. It is only a game…

Monday wasn’t able to go with the rest to Sentosa, cause mum don’t allow…ZZz… Well, there is always a next time! and so…You guys make sure you enjoy yourelf! ok.. got to go… so catch all of you next time! Bye!!